Near the close of my first session, my counselor told me that I was depressed. Oh, my, not me, I thought. I mean, I thought depressed people stayed in the house, withdrew from people and crawled in the bed and pulled the covers over their head and I had done none of that. Well, I thought wrong! People react to depression in various ways.
Through counseling I was able to find closure to my Mom's untimely death, and a healthy balance in my care giving responsibilities. And, I was reminded that God always uses the trials of our life to our good and His glory if we allow Him to.
Does this mean that everything in my life is now perfect? Absolutely not and it never will be. What it means is that I now have a peace I haven't known in some time and I stand amazed at all HE has taught and continues to teach me through these trials. And,as I said, I pray I can be an inspiration and encouragement to others because of what I have been through.
These and many more scriptures took on very special meaning to me during my "valley time."
Isaiah 40: 30,31 “Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
1 Peter 5: 6,7 “Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.”
James 1: 2-4 “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”
While I never lost my joy, I had lost my happiness, and it has felt so good to have a "happy heart" once again!
~a big, big smile~